Failed

Failed

Do you know the feeling of expecting a great result but then it came out to be a worst one?

Have you experience fighting for something even if you know that you have no battle to be fight with?

Have you ever cry to someone explaining the things that you really don’t do?

You know how it feels? It sucks! It’s crazy! And it’s making me weak.

Yeah it’s me.

I admit it.

I’m not okay but I’ll be good.

I’m sad but I’ll be fine not now but soon I’ll be great.

Everybody hates failure and I’m one of them.

I might experience the simplest failure that you might experience but believe me it really hurts.

I just want my family to be proud of me but how can they be if me, myself can’t be proud of my own?

I used to say “I can do it. I can make it because I believe in myself” but knowing my failures makes me feel like a turtle hiding on my own shell.

I want this, I want that… I want so many things but I ended up not getting them.

I know that I will not get all the things that I want but I want to experience the feeling of making others know that I can also do what they can do without depending to anyone or anything.

I know everybody has their own needs and wants. Sometimes it can be given to you right away but sometimes it is delayed but don’t give up. Don’t be negative it’s not the end for you maybe it is just a new start in your new life. God will give what your heart desires it may be delayed because it might be one of God’s way to teach you something. You just have to find what it is.

Believe, have faith, and trust and it will be yours. All the things that you have is the result of what you have decided before and what will you be on the future is the result of what will you decided now. Remember “You can choose your decision but you can’t choose the consequence of your decision”.

What I got is what I deserve.

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