Oh yea I'm a cry baby now. so what?
I feel sad! Felt being left again.. (Wow Big word)
Here's some statements I found in my inbox:
-Ang hirap hirap pala pag di kita nkakausap, gusto ko mag
kwento,
-Its 26 yesterday. and i miss this. I’m 11months loving na
pala. Share lang. i miss u.
-The time when ill comeback is
still unsure. I don’t know, hope to see you before I leave
-Wish you were here..
-But I understand na you
are stressed so I am apologizing
-naalala ko yung sabi mo sakin dati, na dapat palagi kita
kausapin, coz you are alone din sa bahay mo dyan sa katips at parang nkakulong,
well I am like that right now, I just thought that I need you as "a
kausap"
-If hndi mo ako kausapin coz of what happened, I’ll still
talk to you. It might sound crazy but I will just try. i am not leaving later,
shall we record a song?
- I’ll be here to keep you smiling even in the worst mood
you will ever have
-can we go out before I leave? I just want to spend a little
time with you.
-I know you’re too busy, or might be the busiest, but I can
still care for you
-I remember what happened to Mon, when the time he is gone
for a work or maybe have been busy from his Job, well I just thought that
things might happen the same if I would do the same, like being busy and not
caring for the one I love. Well, I don’t want to be like him, I think I will
fight for it and will communicate with you. Coz I do believe that love needs
communication. I must not repeat mistakes of the past. I’m just telling this to
you that, I will always talk to you, like a friend, or maybe someone you can
lean on, when there is no one to talk to, when you are scared at night, and
when you are heartbroken. I won’t be harsh and will try not expecting anything
in return
-Yesterday, when u texted, it feels like it was your very
first text in my whole lifetime. My heart pounded fast upon reading it.
-I missed things that I shared with you, the times na we are
passing letters, and almost every day you care a lot, text a lot, the times you
laugh at my simple jokes, and cry with your burden about mon and your lola, I
miss the times that you always ask for a ride in my back where you became more
tired of riding than walking, missed times when we buy street foods like mais
and sometimes cook it. Missed you saying that you’re super sexy but the bones
are pouting out already, but you’re really sexy, just get healthier, missed
times when I play my guitar over the phone and sing ridiculously coz it’s not
my forte singing, Missed times when you’re sick and had me treat it with just
an alcohol and warm water, missed times that we ran off with the rain hugging
each other in the bus while taking u home, missed our times when we stroll
along to malls and take pictures, staring into mirrors along the way and you
will stop for a window shoe shopping. I missed things we cared about, I missed
watching you sleep and talk, roll and kick me off thru the bed. I missed
us watching movies but not finishing it coz one of us gets knocked off
sleeping. Missed the times you play like a boxer and will pick everything to
throw to me “even my camera”. Record
songs and won’t finish it because of laughter teasing your own voice, missed ur
call every night when you’re scared of the window where you see just a light of
the post. Missed times when you arrive and I will hide and surprise you at the
back, missed the times you taught me how to cook alamang, missed messing up
with my things, I missed the times that the girl I loved is sleeping right
beside me, in my arms and in my heart.
......
I miss that old ones...
Is it just hiding or already gone?
