Failed

Failed

Do you know the feeling of expecting a great result but then it came out to be a worst one?

Have you experience fighting for something even if you know that you have no battle to be fight with?

Have you ever cry to someone explaining the things that you really don’t do?

You know how it feels? It sucks! It’s crazy! And it’s making me weak.

Yeah it’s me.

I admit it.

I’m not okay but I’ll be good.

I’m sad but I’ll be fine not now but soon I’ll be great.

Everybody hates failure and I’m one of them.

I might experience the simplest failure that you might experience but believe me it really hurts.

I just want my family to be proud of me but how can they be if me, myself can’t be proud of my own?

I used to say “I can do it. I can make it because I believe in myself” but knowing my failures makes me feel like a turtle hiding on my own shell.

I want this, I want that… I want so many things but I ended up not getting them.

I know that I will not get all the things that I want but I want to experience the feeling of making others know that I can also do what they can do without depending to anyone or anything.

I know everybody has their own needs and wants. Sometimes it can be given to you right away but sometimes it is delayed but don’t give up. Don’t be negative it’s not the end for you maybe it is just a new start in your new life. God will give what your heart desires it may be delayed because it might be one of God’s way to teach you something. You just have to find what it is.

Believe, have faith, and trust and it will be yours. All the things that you have is the result of what you have decided before and what will you be on the future is the result of what will you decided now. Remember “You can choose your decision but you can’t choose the consequence of your decision”.

What I got is what I deserve.

:(

What do I call him?

What do I call him?

A stranger!

This was the first word that pops out of my mind when I first saw him.

A man with dreads with a not nice suit was not attractive and not really good to my fashion taste. It’s like a junkie style but I said to myself it’s his style what can I do?

But when he talked to me I said he was cool!

We have a lot of things in mutual like how we love gadgets, spy gadgets specifically.

We enjoyed each other’s company, talking a lot of things that makes me think that he was,

A friend!

A stalker!!!

That’s what I used to call him in my mind.

He was a good listener and I think I am a best talker.

He first experience talking when....(I don't know when)  Hmmm probably listening to my stories from Cavite to Manila. (I think I told him all of my stories)

Crazy right?

I remember one time when I got sick he called me with a caring voice.

He asked if I’m alright, commanded me to drink my medicines so that I’ll be good.

Actually he said “get well NOW” and not soon. Oh how sweet.

I got him!

That’s April 1, 2011 when I first knew that he will miss me.

It’s fools day so I said to him that I will fly next week going abroad. I also said that y visa was approved and so on. At the end of the text there is a sentence saying: “happy April fool’s day!”

He didn’t scroll the text down up to the last sentence so he didn’t read that it was just a joke.

To make the story short he replied to me saying “even though I’ve known you for a short period of time I WILL MISS YOU”

Boooom!!!

That’s the first time when I felt my heart beat so fast.

After that I can’t help myself but to think of him.

We update each other and ask how are we doing like lovers do.

Lovers?

Yeah that’s what we are and we enjoy everything.

We are there to each other through ups and downs. In good times and in bad times.

I often break his heart and make him cry but still, he has a big heart and a strong heart that makes him hold me before, now & forever.

To my NEW READER

He is my Childhood crush/ sweet heart or whatever you call it.

I met him during my first days in school. I think he is my classmate since nursery until grade one? (I'm not sure really)

Well we haven't seen each other for 10 years(well this is my guess also). Until we've reached each other again through social media network.

We're now close again. We talked so much about the things that we do. Like how are we getting by in our school. How busy we are & many more. As far as I know him, He is a very Intelligent person.

Hardworking man. Shy type person. He doesn't talk to much but I think if i will just have a chance to talk to him he will just be like me(SUPER TALKATIVE). Well he loves his family so much that he gave up his dream just to follow what his parents wants him to be (ohhhh.. i can relate i did that also. I took what I don't like but at the end I gave up also what they want for me hahaha). I think he is a conservative man. gentleman?? well that's all I can say for now. hahaha

:)

Mr. Yves Lim my new reader,,, 

ENJOY!!

Just enjoy what you have. Don't think that everything is your responsibility take everything as a challenge so that you will not be pressured. Don't think that you're not being appreciated by those people whom you love because many persons were inspired to what you did, do and what will you do.. HEADS UP!!  

BE HAPPY ALWAYS BECAUSE HAPPINESS WILL LET YOU FEEL THE TRUE MEANING OF LIFE.    

What a day.

Today, September 24,2012 we(G1) danced at TEATRO MARIKINA. The seminar/ event was so good. Nice facilities, good speakers and great prices to the audience.

Well our performance was AWESOME. :)

We gave our 100% to make the audience be satisfied to our production number.

After our prod. something happened to me and it really shocked most of the member of our group.

My Asthma attacked me     .

I can't breathe..

aaaahhhhh..

:(

my throat already hurts but still I can't breathe properly.

I am vomiting nothing in the comfort room while one of my group mate (kath) heard me..

Then Faith came to the rescue hugging me so tight and then Ate Jen came next.

After they gave me my medicine my tension in breathing is now going down. Thanks to them. :)

Then Ate Jen held me outside to breathe and Zi lend me her inhaler.

Thanks to their medicine and to their care.

ohhhh..

we're family

hehe.

Now I have to sleep because I need to be better for tomorrow is our practice day for CRISSA :)

Goodnight everyone. have a great sleep. :)

don't forget to pray. :)       

Someday

SOMEDAY

Someday you'll forget about me.

How I call your name.

How I touch your skin.

But, I won't forget everything about you.

Why?

Because you ,

You are the reason why I love.

You are the reason why I breathe.

And you're the reason why I exist...

Now that you're gone,

You left me with nothing to hold on.

You left my heart in pain and in pieces.

Someday you'll find someone better than me.

Better than what we had,

Better that what we've accomplished.

But I hope I will find someone who will let me feel complete more than you do.

Someone who will let me feel secure.

Someone who will love me the way I was

And someone who will be with me no matter what happened.     

GaryStaCruzFilms

About GaryStaCruzFilms:        

 Gary Sta Cruz started as a Computer Specialist and worked in a lot of BPO centers in Metro Manila as computer software and hardware specialist. From being a computer literate, he tried editing some raw video shots since computer was his best buddy.

          He started joining competitions and won several awards. Experimenting (practicing video edits) became his hobby and that is the time where his interest grew.

          By the year 2011 Gary decided to leave the call center industry and tried to be a freelance videographer. That same year he figured out that this is the career that he wants to pursue so he started building his own Home Based Editing Studio.

          Mr. Sta Cruz works in different Video editing companies where he gained more experience, ways, Techniques and started getting his own clients.

          And now he built his OWN TEAM that can produce GOOD QUALITY OF MEDIA WORKS.

For reservations and inquiries:

website:   http://garystacruzfilms.com/

(the website is currently on repair)

telephone:   (02)744-25-72

mobile numbers:   09165580175(globe) / 09192034140(smart)

email:   gdready@yahoo.com

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lalalala....
The whole day I think I'm singing the song Don't know why by Norah Jones..
It makes my mind relaxed from a stressful day.
I feel so good every time i hear this song.
I don't know why I appreciate this song so much. :))
yeah It's I don't know why.
hehe

Song   : Don’t Know Why

Bbmaj7  Bb7  Eb  D  Gm7  C7

 Bbmaj7    Bb7            Ebmaj7    D+

I waited 'til I saw the sun

Gm7          C7       F7sus   Bb

I don't know why I didn't come

Bbmaj7      Bb7       Ebmaj7   D+

I left you by the house of fun

Gm7          C7     F7sus     Bb

I don't know why I didn't come

  Gm7        C7             F7sus

I don't know why I didn't come

Bbmaj7  Bb7     Ebmaj7    D+

When I saw the break of day

Gm7           C7      F7sus    Bb

I wished that I could fly away

    Bbmaj7    Bb7   Ebmaj    D+   

Instead of kneeling in the sand

Gm7      C7        F7sus   Bb

Catching teardrops in my hand

       Gm7  C7           F    F7

My heart is drenched in wine

       Gm7    C7          F7

But you'll be on my mind

F7/Eb   Bb/D     F/C

For       ev         er

Bbmaj7      Bb7        Ebmaj7      D+

Out       across the endless sea

Gm7     C7       F7sus      Bb

I would die in ecstasy

Bbmaj7   Bb7     Ebmaj7        D+

But I'll     be a bag of bones

Gm7        C7         F7sus  Bb

Driving down the road alone

Gm7         C7           F     F7

My heart is drenched in wine

    Gm7      C7      F7

But you'll be on my mind

 Bbmaj7  Bb7  Ebmaj7  D7#5  Gm7  C7  F7sus  Bmaj7  Ebmaj7  D+  Gm7  C7  F7sus

For   ev  er

Bbmaj7       Bb7         Ebmaj7     D+

Something has to make you run

Gm7          C7       F7sus    Bb

I don't know why I didn't come

Bbmaj7     Bb7     Ebmaj7    D+

I feel as empty as a drum

Gm7          C7      F7        Bb

I don't know why I didn't come

  Gm7        C7              F7  Bb

I don't know why I didn't come

   Gm7       C7      F7sus   Bb

I don't know why I didn't come

  
--- the lyrics and chords of don't know why
:)