So ENVY

So ENVY

I don't know what I am feeling now.

I just feel my sadness pull me down.

I can't breathe I feel suffocated to my own air.

I envy those couples who do things unexpectedly and surprising each other.

I want to experience eating your dishes even if you don't cook it very well.

I want you to rub your hands at my back when i have cough.

I want you to put towels at my back every time I get wet from dancing.

I want you holding my hand like a child while crossing the streets.

I just don't feel happy of you not doing what I wish sometimes.

I know it's a bit selfish but it's the simplest thing I know where I can tell you how much I value what you do even if its not perfect.

Knowing that you do things that I want even if you don't makes me feel satisfied.

But knowing that you don't gave any shot of effort makes me feel sick.

I wish I could turn back time but I can't